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Faith Your Fears
Sometimes you must lose faith, just to renew it or maybe even to know that it is there at all. Sometimes, like a doctor, God has to take that tiny hammer and check your reflexes. Maybe He pokes you with a needle, to see if you can still feel pain. Whatever He does, it always comes at the right time.
When things happen that are so overwhelming, you suddenly just fall backwards in your mind. You know He is going to be behind you, to catch you when you fall. And just like that, your faith appears again! Even when you have forgotten about it, while busy with your everyday life.
So many times, this has happened to me in my life. God has caught me too many times to count. He is always there behind me, waiting to catch me at my next fall.
The times I have been sick and too weak to stand. At every funeral. My mom passing. Things that are so horrible, I have to just hand it over to God and fall backwards. He catches me and holds me. I feel safe and warm there in his arms. His strength fills me and renews me. My faith is restored.
Recently my little girl doggie passed. It still catches in my chest when I think about it. She slept with me for twelve years. Twelve years ago, I walked into my friend's house and there, in a basket, sat a perfect tan puffball with eyes. I said, “What is that?” She said “The last one left in a litter of Pomeranian…
